Saturday, March 6, 2010

What if it never happens?

I have to admit, this is the question floating around in my head as the weeks go by with NO NEWS! No forward movement! Continued silence! Not one shred of evidence that things will resolve soon and I will be making a trip to reunite with my beloved girl!
Today, I felt my prayer changing a bit....I am beginning to pray for a family for Moonbeam in Bishkek. I would so much rather see her in a loving family TODAY, than waiting in the BBH for another year or more for me. As much as it breaks my heart to say it out loud or write it here on my blog, that truly is my prayer! Father, bring her a family! Please don't let her miss out on even one more day of living in a loving family. I feel like her childhood is slipping away and it just isn't fair! I feel such a sense of urgency for her as the days march toward her fourth birthday - when she will likely be moved to the older children's orphanage. I can't bare to think of her having to move to another institution. I want so much for her to experience the love of a mama and a papa. And as much as I want that mama to be me, I also do not want her to wait any longer. So, my prayer is that there is a family in country for her. It seems impossible - she has lived at the orphanage since she was two months old and it hasn't happened, but You are the God of the impossible!
Please, Lord! No more waiting for Moonbeam!


Maria said...

Only a "real" mother feels this way, Kimberly. My heart aches for you.

Laura and Tom said...

This is what it means to be a true parent. You will sacrifice anything - including your own happiness - for our child. I know you are the best thing for little Moonbeam and I hope and pray that you will be together soon.

McMary said...

I will pray for the best for Hannah also but I really hope that is you.
I have been following Suzanne's blog and my heart aches for all the waiting children and parents. It just doesn't make sense.