In the book of Proverbs, the wise King Solomon wrote "hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life."
Throughout this adoption adventure, by God's grace, I have maintained an attitude of hopefulness - being convinced that it isn't IF but WHEN I bring home my precious little girl.
I have to admit that King Solomon's words about heart sickness have really been resonating with me this past week. I am finding it more and more difficult to focus on the when and have begun to believe that if is a very real possibility.
I am not in anyway saying that I am done fighting, or waiting, or praying. I am not saying that God has forgotten me or Hannah.
Simply this, that my heart is sick.